We are in Weatherford at our apartment. Everything is off the truck and strewn about the house. thank you for all of your prayers, they have been a great encouragement. Don't stop now though, keep 'em comin'. I will update more when there are fewer boxes about. I will also post some pics when the house is in order and I locate the camera, batteries, and cables, which are probably all in different places-hey, maybe they are with the baby monitors?!?!
Anywho, lunch time, and I get to escape this box prison for a little bit!!
~*~Lori Jean~*~
8.31.2008
8.23.2008
Dying to Pack
Instead of packing tonight like I had planned, I highlighted my hair for the first time in like 5 years. I had pride that my hair was natural...but it was getting a bit boring. I feel like I am about to meet a cute boy or something with Chris coming back in a day or two. I am using my super duper face mask to get rid of my break out, I tanned some and am going to try to go tomorrow if I can get a sitter for a bit. I will shave my legs and pluck my eyebrows and do my feet and nails! This is the first time in years that Chris will get to "see me for the first time" so I want to be pretty for him. Or as he says "smokin hot". Whatever that is...
And by the way, if you are not Kira or April you may not know about THE BIG MOVE. God said go to Texas for work. Chris went. Then God said, the whole family will go now. So we are. Both callings gave us about a week to prepare. The moving truck will be here on the 28th. This is all too exciting just picking up and going on faith. I Love It! This gives new energy to the family. and fyi-all of this occured when the right amount was written on the tithe checks...coincidence, I think not! :)
Well...Chris does not know I did my hair, and though I am acting like it is a big move for me (which it really is), it is not like I used to do with bright blonde highlights, but a more mature honey brown highlight on the dull brown hair I was blessed with. I hope he likes it. I didn't get to lose 10lbs and a dress size, but he wont mind so I won't either right now.
The packing will resume tomorrow if all goes as planned. After I get all of the breakables packed I may be calling in back up. As I told Kira, I don't want to be able to blame anyone but me if anything breaks.
Well...it is uber late so I should go take off my face mask and get some sleep. Big days ahead...exhilarating!
Pray for us! We love you all! Some people we will have to miss, but we will get to meet some in return so it is exciting!
~*~Lori Jean~*~
And by the way, if you are not Kira or April you may not know about THE BIG MOVE. God said go to Texas for work. Chris went. Then God said, the whole family will go now. So we are. Both callings gave us about a week to prepare. The moving truck will be here on the 28th. This is all too exciting just picking up and going on faith. I Love It! This gives new energy to the family. and fyi-all of this occured when the right amount was written on the tithe checks...coincidence, I think not! :)
Well...Chris does not know I did my hair, and though I am acting like it is a big move for me (which it really is), it is not like I used to do with bright blonde highlights, but a more mature honey brown highlight on the dull brown hair I was blessed with. I hope he likes it. I didn't get to lose 10lbs and a dress size, but he wont mind so I won't either right now.
The packing will resume tomorrow if all goes as planned. After I get all of the breakables packed I may be calling in back up. As I told Kira, I don't want to be able to blame anyone but me if anything breaks.
Well...it is uber late so I should go take off my face mask and get some sleep. Big days ahead...exhilarating!
Pray for us! We love you all! Some people we will have to miss, but we will get to meet some in return so it is exciting!
~*~Lori Jean~*~
8.19.2008
Where to begin...
Being stuck all alone at night unable to sleep has really done some work on my thoughts.
Today is the two year anniversary for Chris and I. Seems like it has been much longer that we have been together, but not that long at the same time, it is wierd. We have been happy and very sure of our love, but being appart has made us both soo much more appreciative. There are soo many things I could have and should have been doing as a wife. I really feel like this time apart is making us both stronger indivually so we can work better together. I am also getting to see how much he did help out despite my constant complaints. I have changed a lot as a person, and there really is no need for it. Inside of me is a fun/loving/caring person. I used to laugh every day...even when things were the worst they could be. I alway had a philosophy that things could be worse so I had to be happy. Growing up with an alcoholic mother gave me some perspectives that I didn't need at such a young age, and did in turn make me more mature before I should have been. That doesn't mean I need to be old now. Chris says he is happy with me, but I cannot help but think about the girl he fell in love with 4 yrs ago. The girl that played off knowing who he was and did lots of dorky things to impress him to only end up running into a large cement ashtray when looking at his butt instead of where she was going. I miss that girl, I think he goes too. Between kids and money issues and just life changes I let the lighter side of me go. I ended up now with the bare minimum for friends and just running a day to day for a life. That is not how it is meant to be. Looking at things in the perspective that God wants us to be happy while being responsible is something I need to remember now. I am going to find fun yet responsible Lori and bring her out again. There is no need to worry day in and day out and surely no need to pass all that on to those around me.
Look out folks Old Lori minus the daily teenager mistakes is coming back! You will soon be amused by me and entertained by Chris stealing my jokes. Uptight "don't do this and don't do that" lori is getting packed up and moved out.
I state this here b/c I need help with this. I want to be a happier, healthier, better person. That is who I need to be, and who I believe God intended for me to be, not this person I have been acting like lately! Pray for it, let me know when I get too uptight!
~*~Lori Jean, new and improved~*~
Today is the two year anniversary for Chris and I. Seems like it has been much longer that we have been together, but not that long at the same time, it is wierd. We have been happy and very sure of our love, but being appart has made us both soo much more appreciative. There are soo many things I could have and should have been doing as a wife. I really feel like this time apart is making us both stronger indivually so we can work better together. I am also getting to see how much he did help out despite my constant complaints. I have changed a lot as a person, and there really is no need for it. Inside of me is a fun/loving/caring person. I used to laugh every day...even when things were the worst they could be. I alway had a philosophy that things could be worse so I had to be happy. Growing up with an alcoholic mother gave me some perspectives that I didn't need at such a young age, and did in turn make me more mature before I should have been. That doesn't mean I need to be old now. Chris says he is happy with me, but I cannot help but think about the girl he fell in love with 4 yrs ago. The girl that played off knowing who he was and did lots of dorky things to impress him to only end up running into a large cement ashtray when looking at his butt instead of where she was going. I miss that girl, I think he goes too. Between kids and money issues and just life changes I let the lighter side of me go. I ended up now with the bare minimum for friends and just running a day to day for a life. That is not how it is meant to be. Looking at things in the perspective that God wants us to be happy while being responsible is something I need to remember now. I am going to find fun yet responsible Lori and bring her out again. There is no need to worry day in and day out and surely no need to pass all that on to those around me.
Look out folks Old Lori minus the daily teenager mistakes is coming back! You will soon be amused by me and entertained by Chris stealing my jokes. Uptight "don't do this and don't do that" lori is getting packed up and moved out.
I state this here b/c I need help with this. I want to be a happier, healthier, better person. That is who I need to be, and who I believe God intended for me to be, not this person I have been acting like lately! Pray for it, let me know when I get too uptight!
~*~Lori Jean, new and improved~*~
8.15.2008
When others say it best.
Thank you for those who have prayed for us in this time of new things and scary things. It is much appreciated. and now for something I don't think I have pulled out since high school-my favorite book, and I will share some of Charlie Straightarrows poetry with you all. I feel content...I feel loved...I feel good...but above all this-I feel wide awake. you can take that as me feeling awake to the future and all its possibilities or as unable to sleep...I will take it as both.
[these do not mean that they are how i feel now or anything, i just like them]
I will tell the story about this book later. (note to self, talk about mom and this book later)
/2.
Some people tend to complicate love
like a florist who wraps a lot of green junk with a single rose
trying to make it appear more than it is-
after all,
what it is is enough.
/5.
Love is
forgiveness
acceptance
and sometimes understanding
Numbers:
If you don't make a conscious effort to change it
the only difference between this year and next year
will be the last digit
some people learn from experience
experiences just happen to others
/7.
along the interstate
besides the ones that read:
"See Rock City"
are blue signs that say:
"Rest Area 1 Mile"
why can't we have them
along the road of life?
/8.
Some people avoid reality at all cost
don't as for my advice or opinion
unless you want the truth
just the way it is
I won't give reassurance
to your rationalizations
/9.
at times
rational justification doesn't exist
it's just
that you really feel
it's something you have to do
if that's the way it is
then do it
and don't look back
Well...since awakeness is still here and tiredness did not set in. The abbreviated version of the story of the book.
I got the book "Where the hell is mulberry street?" for $0.25 at the Christian Mission when I was in high school. it is a small, green, tattered book. I fell in love though. This book makes my imagination soar. I love the bluntness of the man's poetry and his attitude of "take it like it is", but, this book was a gift. A man named Tom gave this book to a woman that he had just barely met but loved her already. It makes me sad that I found it where I did. I wonder what happened to their love. A few years ago I got a suprising email from the son of Charlie Straightarrow. I got background information on him and unfortunately learned that he had passed away. His son had searched his name and found a website I had where I had some of the poetry posted. Charlie's son was glad that I enjoyed his father's writing. I was glad that he found me. I now just feel this connection. This book also got me through a lot of tough times and I just feel good when I read it. Maybe you liked some of the short poems above, I just like the simplicity of it. I wish I still had my email from his son but it was in an account that I cancelled and wish I had kept the email.
Well...gonna try sleeping goodnight!
[these do not mean that they are how i feel now or anything, i just like them]
I will tell the story about this book later. (note to self, talk about mom and this book later)
/2.
Some people tend to complicate love
like a florist who wraps a lot of green junk with a single rose
trying to make it appear more than it is-
after all,
what it is is enough.
/5.
Love is
forgiveness
acceptance
and sometimes understanding
Numbers:
If you don't make a conscious effort to change it
the only difference between this year and next year
will be the last digit
some people learn from experience
experiences just happen to others
/7.
along the interstate
besides the ones that read:
"See Rock City"
are blue signs that say:
"Rest Area 1 Mile"
why can't we have them
along the road of life?
/8.
Some people avoid reality at all cost
don't as for my advice or opinion
unless you want the truth
just the way it is
I won't give reassurance
to your rationalizations
/9.
at times
rational justification doesn't exist
it's just
that you really feel
it's something you have to do
if that's the way it is
then do it
and don't look back
Well...since awakeness is still here and tiredness did not set in. The abbreviated version of the story of the book.
I got the book "Where the hell is mulberry street?" for $0.25 at the Christian Mission when I was in high school. it is a small, green, tattered book. I fell in love though. This book makes my imagination soar. I love the bluntness of the man's poetry and his attitude of "take it like it is", but, this book was a gift. A man named Tom gave this book to a woman that he had just barely met but loved her already. It makes me sad that I found it where I did. I wonder what happened to their love. A few years ago I got a suprising email from the son of Charlie Straightarrow. I got background information on him and unfortunately learned that he had passed away. His son had searched his name and found a website I had where I had some of the poetry posted. Charlie's son was glad that I enjoyed his father's writing. I was glad that he found me. I now just feel this connection. This book also got me through a lot of tough times and I just feel good when I read it. Maybe you liked some of the short poems above, I just like the simplicity of it. I wish I still had my email from his son but it was in an account that I cancelled and wish I had kept the email.
Well...gonna try sleeping goodnight!
8.13.2008
8.11.2008
I am my own worst enemy
[WARNING, SARCASM MIGHT BE INCLUDED, AND NO PERSON WAS "LOST" IN THE MAKING OF THIS BLOG STORY-so don't cry]
Monday, August 11, 2008:
Today we have lost one of our best. She was lost during a tragic door closing incident. She always helped me put my best foot forward. We had many good times, lots of girls nights and spa nights. Still, many things we did not get to do together. I will miss her, as will my open toed shoes. Right big toe toenail, I bid you farewell.
ahh...so yeah, checked the mail, walked in, shut the door and in the process knocked my toenail loose. it is attached at the base only, and hurts more than a little bit. luckily my mom came over to help with the kiddos tonite. I bandaged it until the nail finally falls off. I was soo looking forward to a pedicure, just not sure if I would want to do that with only 9 toenails. I was joking and told Chris I would go if I got a 9 nail discount.
Well...I am tired, and hurting!! bleh.... tomorrow will be movie day at the house, b/c as petty as it sounds, it hurts to carry a baby without full use of your foot.
goodnight! I would post pics but I was told it looked kinda gross, and I don't want to unwrap it now. ouch.
~*~Lori the Clumsy at your service~*~
Monday, August 11, 2008:
Today we have lost one of our best. She was lost during a tragic door closing incident. She always helped me put my best foot forward. We had many good times, lots of girls nights and spa nights. Still, many things we did not get to do together. I will miss her, as will my open toed shoes. Right big toe toenail, I bid you farewell.
ahh...so yeah, checked the mail, walked in, shut the door and in the process knocked my toenail loose. it is attached at the base only, and hurts more than a little bit. luckily my mom came over to help with the kiddos tonite. I bandaged it until the nail finally falls off. I was soo looking forward to a pedicure, just not sure if I would want to do that with only 9 toenails. I was joking and told Chris I would go if I got a 9 nail discount.
Well...I am tired, and hurting!! bleh.... tomorrow will be movie day at the house, b/c as petty as it sounds, it hurts to carry a baby without full use of your foot.
goodnight! I would post pics but I was told it looked kinda gross, and I don't want to unwrap it now. ouch.
~*~Lori the Clumsy at your service~*~
8.09.2008
Yackity Yack!
I should be repainting my toenails, or to be more correct-chiseling off the old few layers of paint and then repainting. The wedding Wednesday I had to rush to get ready for so I ended up painting over my old polish and throwing some open toed shoes on. It turned out nice, err, just as good as if a blind man had done it for me with his toes!! So, next on the agenda, toenails!!
Today was pretty un-eventful. We stayed home except for a trip to walmart. With Trystan in the carrier all these little old ladies would come up to see him and talk about how i need an extra set of hands with the two kids. I am a trooper though. I told Chris I was glad I made it through this week. I am soo used to getting a break when he would get home, but I can hang with it. God didn't give me the go yet.
Tomorrow after Church (which my Dad is supposed to go with us again-praise Jesus and can I get an AMEN!) we are going to Dothan to my grandparents and the whole family will be there for lunch. It is kind of a welcome home for my mom since she just got back from Teen Challenge last week. So far so good too. I just pray for her to have strength and stay straight. You are more than welcome to pray for her too. I will get to show Trystan off to the half of the family that hasn't seen him. I will try not to plow over their "For Sale By Owner" sign in the front yard!!
Must Have It:
Queen Helene Mint Julep Mask. This stuff is awesome for acne. I have gone through 2 tubes in like 6 yrs since it lasts forever. It is very good for those pesky nerve related problems right before a big day. http://www.queenhelene.com/skincaremaskscrub2.php I haven't tried the rest of their line but I will have to b/c of how great the mask is. Warning though, it does burn a lot the first time and if you get it close to your eyes. Otherwise, dries everything up and tightens and it is totally awesome.
Well...I will keep everyone posted on plans for moving, etc as soon as the big guy gives me instructions.
~*~Lori Jean and the Kidsters~*~
Today was pretty un-eventful. We stayed home except for a trip to walmart. With Trystan in the carrier all these little old ladies would come up to see him and talk about how i need an extra set of hands with the two kids. I am a trooper though. I told Chris I was glad I made it through this week. I am soo used to getting a break when he would get home, but I can hang with it. God didn't give me the go yet.
Tomorrow after Church (which my Dad is supposed to go with us again-praise Jesus and can I get an AMEN!) we are going to Dothan to my grandparents and the whole family will be there for lunch. It is kind of a welcome home for my mom since she just got back from Teen Challenge last week. So far so good too. I just pray for her to have strength and stay straight. You are more than welcome to pray for her too. I will get to show Trystan off to the half of the family that hasn't seen him. I will try not to plow over their "For Sale By Owner" sign in the front yard!!
Must Have It:
Queen Helene Mint Julep Mask. This stuff is awesome for acne. I have gone through 2 tubes in like 6 yrs since it lasts forever. It is very good for those pesky nerve related problems right before a big day. http://www.queenhelene.com/skincaremaskscrub2.php I haven't tried the rest of their line but I will have to b/c of how great the mask is. Warning though, it does burn a lot the first time and if you get it close to your eyes. Otherwise, dries everything up and tightens and it is totally awesome.
Well...I will keep everyone posted on plans for moving, etc as soon as the big guy gives me instructions.
~*~Lori Jean and the Kidsters~*~
8.08.2008
Friday Is a Day
Sooo...I fear some of my posts were getting a bit boring, so I will try to be slightly more entertaining. I am thinking I will add in a "must have it" paragraph for those who just NEED to know what I must have!! :) I dunno...let me know if the idea is totally lame.
Anywho. Today. Up. Ready. Exit for Chris. Toys R Us. Chuck E Cheese. Home. Dinner. PChef work. The In-Laws. Home. Showers. Bed.
I should have taken the camera but the batteries are downstairs, the camera is upstairs, and my brain is mush when I try to get out the door!!
MUST HAVE IT:
Soo...you would never guess what I found at Toys R Us!!!! The Boon Spoon ( http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2908664) AND the Boon Flo (http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2574618) !!!
I wanted these already and saw them today, needless to say, the store had one less of each after I got out of there. (fyi-i did pay for them) The spoon is AWESOME! I didn't have to worry about the great "grab and dump" maneuver happening when I fed Trystan his rice cereal (err...milk rice soup). The Flo was pretty cool too. It even has a dispenser to put in bubble bath so Alexis got to make her own bubbles in the tub and we are hopefully working towards independent rinsing!!
I also found some sweet deals on some CDROMs. One is Dancing Princess games and the other is a Pre-K jump start with two disks, 5 books, and flashcards! They were $7.98 each! Since we don't have any dates or plans or anything set right now for moving I am not putting Alexis in pre-k yet, but I still want her to learn and she really enjoys when we let her play games on the computer so I hope it works out that she can learn that way too. She gets kinda closed off when I try to do learning with just us, she does MUCH better when there are other kids around.
Alexis and Trystan are doing good. Alexis is going more into helper mode aside from putting EVERYTHING in her mouth for some reason. Alexis consoles Trystan, washes her body, puts on her clothes, brushes/flosses/rinses/mouthwash, lots of neato stuff! Next step is tennis shoes with laces!!! DUN DUN DUN! Trystan wants to sit up and also walk soo bad. He gets ill if i lay him down. He hasn't slept a full night again, but he is only waking up once now and still going back to sleep for 30 min - 1 hr in the am so I can wake up more.
Now for the inevitable part: I miss Chris. A lot. It sucks having to wait and having to be responsible when all I really want to do is pack up and go be with him. I don't like having to go through an entire day without him holding me, much less entire days back to back. I just keep praying for all the doors to open when it is GODs time for us to go. He knows that if we try to do this on our own we would mess it up. Soo...it is guidance I am praying for, and guidance I must wait for. So far it is all looking like living in TX will be the plan. We more than likely have someone to rent our place here, and my dad is offering to drive whatever moving truck we get to TX for us. My dad is cool-he told me today that he wants to get me back with chris soon because I don't sound happy without him. and though it sounds like party/vacation/fun time central here, if it were just me I would be a sad puppy home all the time. I don't want Alexis to get any sadder than she is though so I gotta keep busy and keep my head up. Plus, when you follow God you cannot get down, you gotta trust and keep your chin up!
Well...I should go and cuddle Chris' pillow and go to sleep.
~*~Lori Jean~*~
nite
Anywho. Today. Up. Ready. Exit for Chris. Toys R Us. Chuck E Cheese. Home. Dinner. PChef work. The In-Laws. Home. Showers. Bed.
I should have taken the camera but the batteries are downstairs, the camera is upstairs, and my brain is mush when I try to get out the door!!
MUST HAVE IT:
Soo...you would never guess what I found at Toys R Us!!!! The Boon Spoon ( http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2908664) AND the Boon Flo (http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2574618) !!!
I wanted these already and saw them today, needless to say, the store had one less of each after I got out of there. (fyi-i did pay for them) The spoon is AWESOME! I didn't have to worry about the great "grab and dump" maneuver happening when I fed Trystan his rice cereal (err...milk rice soup). The Flo was pretty cool too. It even has a dispenser to put in bubble bath so Alexis got to make her own bubbles in the tub and we are hopefully working towards independent rinsing!!
I also found some sweet deals on some CDROMs. One is Dancing Princess games and the other is a Pre-K jump start with two disks, 5 books, and flashcards! They were $7.98 each! Since we don't have any dates or plans or anything set right now for moving I am not putting Alexis in pre-k yet, but I still want her to learn and she really enjoys when we let her play games on the computer so I hope it works out that she can learn that way too. She gets kinda closed off when I try to do learning with just us, she does MUCH better when there are other kids around.
Alexis and Trystan are doing good. Alexis is going more into helper mode aside from putting EVERYTHING in her mouth for some reason. Alexis consoles Trystan, washes her body, puts on her clothes, brushes/flosses/rinses/mouthwash, lots of neato stuff! Next step is tennis shoes with laces!!! DUN DUN DUN! Trystan wants to sit up and also walk soo bad. He gets ill if i lay him down. He hasn't slept a full night again, but he is only waking up once now and still going back to sleep for 30 min - 1 hr in the am so I can wake up more.
Now for the inevitable part: I miss Chris. A lot. It sucks having to wait and having to be responsible when all I really want to do is pack up and go be with him. I don't like having to go through an entire day without him holding me, much less entire days back to back. I just keep praying for all the doors to open when it is GODs time for us to go. He knows that if we try to do this on our own we would mess it up. Soo...it is guidance I am praying for, and guidance I must wait for. So far it is all looking like living in TX will be the plan. We more than likely have someone to rent our place here, and my dad is offering to drive whatever moving truck we get to TX for us. My dad is cool-he told me today that he wants to get me back with chris soon because I don't sound happy without him. and though it sounds like party/vacation/fun time central here, if it were just me I would be a sad puppy home all the time. I don't want Alexis to get any sadder than she is though so I gotta keep busy and keep my head up. Plus, when you follow God you cannot get down, you gotta trust and keep your chin up!
Well...I should go and cuddle Chris' pillow and go to sleep.
~*~Lori Jean~*~
nite
8.06.2008
Woo to the Hoo!!!!!!!
For the first time since my first trimester with Trystan....I SLEPT ALL NIGHT!!!!!
I LOVE my boy!
I didn't have to get up with him until 6am! I feel refreshed, invigorated!! yay!!
AND...I got to start my day talking to Chris since I was up before he went to work!!!
This should be a good day...heck...even if it isn't...I am glad!! Blessed!!! Elated!!!!
Have a Good One!!
~*~Lori Jean~*~
ps-he even went back to sleep again so I have been able to get myself ready for the day!
I LOVE my boy!
I didn't have to get up with him until 6am! I feel refreshed, invigorated!! yay!!
AND...I got to start my day talking to Chris since I was up before he went to work!!!
This should be a good day...heck...even if it isn't...I am glad!! Blessed!!! Elated!!!!
Have a Good One!!
~*~Lori Jean~*~
ps-he even went back to sleep again so I have been able to get myself ready for the day!
8.05.2008
I miss my smooches...
Today....was....long....
Ok...Here is the low down.
We are getting paperwork drawn up for Alexis to "officially all ours". We needed that for her to start school next year anyways. From there lets all just pray that things go well. There is no way for us to be all together if Alexis isn't a part of us.
I found a dress for Brian's (my half ex step brother or something like that) wedding tomorrow. FYI-The clothing industry had reduced sizes by 2 and didn't tell us. (ex: a tag says ten but it is really an eight). Thought you all might want to know that. I was quite baffled!! ;)
We had lunch and naps and I got some Pampered Chef work done during naptime.
I got to talk to Chris more today, that was especially nice. Scrubs is on, I miss watching Scrubs with Chris...I miss him. But, we got here by praying, we will get out on the other side praying.
My friend Kristen came over this afternoon and we went and ate Mexican with her then met Chris' sis and niece at Smoochies for ice cream. After that it was home for showers, stories, crying Trystan, talking to Chris, and bedtimes.
Tomorrow is library and smoochies lunch day. I think my mom is joining us. After that is the wedding. Then I think I should cook some dinner...I haven't done that in almost a week. Thursday I think I will try to keep us home for some house cleaning, naptimes, and rest.
I am fairly tired now. I will try to get some more interesting 411 to share here.
goodnight
~*~Chris' old lady~*~
Ok...Here is the low down.
We are getting paperwork drawn up for Alexis to "officially all ours". We needed that for her to start school next year anyways. From there lets all just pray that things go well. There is no way for us to be all together if Alexis isn't a part of us.
I found a dress for Brian's (my half ex step brother or something like that) wedding tomorrow. FYI-The clothing industry had reduced sizes by 2 and didn't tell us. (ex: a tag says ten but it is really an eight). Thought you all might want to know that. I was quite baffled!! ;)
We had lunch and naps and I got some Pampered Chef work done during naptime.
I got to talk to Chris more today, that was especially nice. Scrubs is on, I miss watching Scrubs with Chris...I miss him. But, we got here by praying, we will get out on the other side praying.
My friend Kristen came over this afternoon and we went and ate Mexican with her then met Chris' sis and niece at Smoochies for ice cream. After that it was home for showers, stories, crying Trystan, talking to Chris, and bedtimes.
Tomorrow is library and smoochies lunch day. I think my mom is joining us. After that is the wedding. Then I think I should cook some dinner...I haven't done that in almost a week. Thursday I think I will try to keep us home for some house cleaning, naptimes, and rest.
I am fairly tired now. I will try to get some more interesting 411 to share here.
goodnight
~*~Chris' old lady~*~
Keep it up!
Soo...today we stayed busy.
I have felt much better. Chris sent me some pics and a cute one of him today via text. He called on lunch to let us know he didn't forget us, and he seemed to be pretty happy! This time away is hard, but it does make me miss even the things he usually does that I thought I didn't like. ex: When cleaning up I always first look around for his socks/shirts/etc that get left on the floor and then have to chat with him about what is "dirty" and what is "clean". I didn't get to do that, and I miss it. I don't get to cook really b/c it is just me and Alexis. I really don't have much at all to do around here without Chris. Less laundry, fewer dishes, less conversation, no decision making chat over daily tasks, no one to make me stop running and relax a min. A lot more is getting done around here, but I will be happy when I can be late everywhere and have lots to do. It makes the seperation better being able to look forward to all of his quirks that I thought I would never miss. Hopefully he is missing my quirks if I have any that are missable...he probably is better off without some of it! ;)
Today Trystan and I got up around 8, he ate and I got him dressed for the day. I got Alexis up at 9 and we got dressed for the day. We had toast, bananas, and juice for breakfast. Then we went to wal mart and got some pool fun stuff so we can go swim with my step sister Mary and some things for the house. We came home and had sandwiches, yogurt, and water for lunch-Trystan had the Good Stuff of course. Then naps for both the kiddos while I made a few phone calls (mother's day out program, no more office cleaning, kristen is good and her dad might want me to do some work for him, my sister is doing good and being Trina). After naps we watched Rachel Ray and ate snacks then headed out for Dothan. We went around the mall some, I got an outfit on sale, we got some fudge for my mom and some tiny bags of candy for us from the candy store and an array of chocolate covered items to include gummy bears. After that we went to Daleville and saw my mom. It was the first time in ten months! She is pretty good, I will need to post a pic of her. Her story will be a whole blog in and of itself-let's just all pray for her strength and dedication to God to stay strong even being back here! We ate with her and she had fun getting to see Trystan for the first time. I also got to see my little brother Ryan for the first time in ten months. He thinks he is all grown up...but he might be a little-he had to back the car out for me. After that is was home for baths, feeding Trystan, stories, talking to Chris and me being online and unable to sleep until this 1am post. I will try to sleep after this, I will cuddle Chris' uncomfortable pillow that I previously did not like.
Anywho...now that you know my entire day...off to bed and to start a new day for a new post tomorrow. Should be some interesting 411 tomorrow-going to see about taking Alexis with us to Texas-of course, if she cannot go I won't go b/c we are not a family without our Alexis.
Good night/Day and God Bless!
~*~Chris' Lori Jean~*~
ps-Thanks for the prayers everyone, I have been feeling mucho bettero!!
I have felt much better. Chris sent me some pics and a cute one of him today via text. He called on lunch to let us know he didn't forget us, and he seemed to be pretty happy! This time away is hard, but it does make me miss even the things he usually does that I thought I didn't like. ex: When cleaning up I always first look around for his socks/shirts/etc that get left on the floor and then have to chat with him about what is "dirty" and what is "clean". I didn't get to do that, and I miss it. I don't get to cook really b/c it is just me and Alexis. I really don't have much at all to do around here without Chris. Less laundry, fewer dishes, less conversation, no decision making chat over daily tasks, no one to make me stop running and relax a min. A lot more is getting done around here, but I will be happy when I can be late everywhere and have lots to do. It makes the seperation better being able to look forward to all of his quirks that I thought I would never miss. Hopefully he is missing my quirks if I have any that are missable...he probably is better off without some of it! ;)
Today Trystan and I got up around 8, he ate and I got him dressed for the day. I got Alexis up at 9 and we got dressed for the day. We had toast, bananas, and juice for breakfast. Then we went to wal mart and got some pool fun stuff so we can go swim with my step sister Mary and some things for the house. We came home and had sandwiches, yogurt, and water for lunch-Trystan had the Good Stuff of course. Then naps for both the kiddos while I made a few phone calls (mother's day out program, no more office cleaning, kristen is good and her dad might want me to do some work for him, my sister is doing good and being Trina). After naps we watched Rachel Ray and ate snacks then headed out for Dothan. We went around the mall some, I got an outfit on sale, we got some fudge for my mom and some tiny bags of candy for us from the candy store and an array of chocolate covered items to include gummy bears. After that we went to Daleville and saw my mom. It was the first time in ten months! She is pretty good, I will need to post a pic of her. Her story will be a whole blog in and of itself-let's just all pray for her strength and dedication to God to stay strong even being back here! We ate with her and she had fun getting to see Trystan for the first time. I also got to see my little brother Ryan for the first time in ten months. He thinks he is all grown up...but he might be a little-he had to back the car out for me. After that is was home for baths, feeding Trystan, stories, talking to Chris and me being online and unable to sleep until this 1am post. I will try to sleep after this, I will cuddle Chris' uncomfortable pillow that I previously did not like.
Anywho...now that you know my entire day...off to bed and to start a new day for a new post tomorrow. Should be some interesting 411 tomorrow-going to see about taking Alexis with us to Texas-of course, if she cannot go I won't go b/c we are not a family without our Alexis.
Good night/Day and God Bless!
~*~Chris' Lori Jean~*~
ps-Thanks for the prayers everyone, I have been feeling mucho bettero!!
8.03.2008
The Lonely Hearts Club
So, I know that there are a lot of women out there missing their husbands b/c of war, work, etc...but I still think I have a right to feel completely lost right now...and I do.
This is DAY 2 of Chris being gone. I don't like it, not one bit. I wish I could just go be with him now. When we looked at financial aspects of everyone going and having all the $$ needed to get a place and get us there we said a month to a month and a half. I am just having to pray that just as Chris ended up in Texas, God will again lead us by opening the doors for us. I feel like a piece of me is missing. I realized I don't even know how to talk to other people really. I have gotten past the cry every hour thing now and have felt more peace, but I am still soo lonely. Chris and I would talk on the phone 2-10 times a day while he worked and then when he got home and again after the kids went to bed...I don't have anyone to talk with now really, especially not in person. Well...that was a lie...sorry...My Dad has been here-oddly enough he has been then most supportive person of me lately, and really has had a lot of encouraging things to say on the topic. If anyone is still reading this, **WARNING** the rest of this post will be about like the beginning, a lot of me boo hooing. My sister said I have three days to be sad so I am taking them.
I find myself just kind of sitting here doing nothing sometimes, most days my motivation was Chris. I act like he is gone for good or something-but he is my other half, and as corny as it sounds-he completes me. That being said-there is just a Lori shell here with my heart in Texas. I will pull it together though. I need to get an activity for the kiddos set up and get myself to tan and work out. This is tough...I will stop babbling...bleh...
time to sit up until I pass out from sheer exhaustion...bleh
goodnight.
~*~Lori Jean~*~
This is DAY 2 of Chris being gone. I don't like it, not one bit. I wish I could just go be with him now. When we looked at financial aspects of everyone going and having all the $$ needed to get a place and get us there we said a month to a month and a half. I am just having to pray that just as Chris ended up in Texas, God will again lead us by opening the doors for us. I feel like a piece of me is missing. I realized I don't even know how to talk to other people really. I have gotten past the cry every hour thing now and have felt more peace, but I am still soo lonely. Chris and I would talk on the phone 2-10 times a day while he worked and then when he got home and again after the kids went to bed...I don't have anyone to talk with now really, especially not in person. Well...that was a lie...sorry...My Dad has been here-oddly enough he has been then most supportive person of me lately, and really has had a lot of encouraging things to say on the topic. If anyone is still reading this, **WARNING** the rest of this post will be about like the beginning, a lot of me boo hooing. My sister said I have three days to be sad so I am taking them.
I find myself just kind of sitting here doing nothing sometimes, most days my motivation was Chris. I act like he is gone for good or something-but he is my other half, and as corny as it sounds-he completes me. That being said-there is just a Lori shell here with my heart in Texas. I will pull it together though. I need to get an activity for the kiddos set up and get myself to tan and work out. This is tough...I will stop babbling...bleh...
time to sit up until I pass out from sheer exhaustion...bleh
goodnight.
~*~Lori Jean~*~
8.01.2008
Everythings Bigger In Texas...
Ok...I will keep this upbeat.
Tonite we are packing for Chris to go to Texas tomorrow bright and early. I am nervous/scared/excited about it all. The kids and I will go later when he has a place set up there. I am not quite sure how I will function without Chris. In the past 4 yrs I haven't gone an entire day without him. We have prayed about this and everything is just falling into place. I pray constantly that he will make it safely and that everyone will be ok and that Alexis doesn't get too upset. I don't think she knows that he won't be home tomorrow night to tuck her in. We will make it, God is taking care of us, it is just human nature to get this antsy.
We are also praying for direction on if we should end up renting out our house here and moving, or going back and forth, or just keeping this place and going there and renting. It is hard. We do know that the time apart needs to be as minor as possible. Heck, he is only at his parents right now to tell them by and give them some spare keys and you would think he was already gone as sad as I am already. Of course I will just have to be strong and stay busy.
You ask my plans for this seperation:
Become the hottie Chris thinks he married. I have not had time to get back into shape since Trystan was born so I need to work on that. Yes, it has only been 3 months, but I got hooked on rice cooker cakes and that has ruined me. I will more than likely sign Alexis and Trystan up for Little Blessings-Mom's day out at Hillcrest so I can have those tues and thurs mornings to tan/exercise/ clean house/etc. So, I do look forward to chucking the snacks in the house and getting into shape so he sees the lady he fell in love with when I see him again. I want him to always be proud that I am his wife. I know he still is, but...I also know I need to get back into my clothes so I don't feel the need to buy new ones.
Well...this is a ramble, just a little something to say hey "pray for us" and to let you all know what is going on.
~*~Mommy Jelly Bean-Lori Jean~*~
PS-Aug 19th is our anniversary and we will more than likely not be able to be together, I will need ice cream and a chick flick and a friend or two. Chris will probably need someone to occupy his mind too. God preplanned the seperation by giving us the news of Trystan for our first anniversary to make up for this seperation I think.
Tonite we are packing for Chris to go to Texas tomorrow bright and early. I am nervous/scared/excited about it all. The kids and I will go later when he has a place set up there. I am not quite sure how I will function without Chris. In the past 4 yrs I haven't gone an entire day without him. We have prayed about this and everything is just falling into place. I pray constantly that he will make it safely and that everyone will be ok and that Alexis doesn't get too upset. I don't think she knows that he won't be home tomorrow night to tuck her in. We will make it, God is taking care of us, it is just human nature to get this antsy.
We are also praying for direction on if we should end up renting out our house here and moving, or going back and forth, or just keeping this place and going there and renting. It is hard. We do know that the time apart needs to be as minor as possible. Heck, he is only at his parents right now to tell them by and give them some spare keys and you would think he was already gone as sad as I am already. Of course I will just have to be strong and stay busy.
You ask my plans for this seperation:
Become the hottie Chris thinks he married. I have not had time to get back into shape since Trystan was born so I need to work on that. Yes, it has only been 3 months, but I got hooked on rice cooker cakes and that has ruined me. I will more than likely sign Alexis and Trystan up for Little Blessings-Mom's day out at Hillcrest so I can have those tues and thurs mornings to tan/exercise/ clean house/etc. So, I do look forward to chucking the snacks in the house and getting into shape so he sees the lady he fell in love with when I see him again. I want him to always be proud that I am his wife. I know he still is, but...I also know I need to get back into my clothes so I don't feel the need to buy new ones.
Well...this is a ramble, just a little something to say hey "pray for us" and to let you all know what is going on.
~*~Mommy Jelly Bean-Lori Jean~*~
PS-Aug 19th is our anniversary and we will more than likely not be able to be together, I will need ice cream and a chick flick and a friend or two. Chris will probably need someone to occupy his mind too. God preplanned the seperation by giving us the news of Trystan for our first anniversary to make up for this seperation I think.
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